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Is confusing the shit out of me right now...I feel like some of my friends are betraying me even though im pretty sure they wouldn't do that.
Now, you, why? Why do you have to go and do the one thing I really really dont want you to do? I don't understand, your not stupid so I think you should know its not a good idea. But Im really begining to not care. Do what you want. I am probably going to just move out of state with my parents. Fuck Tallahassee. I just don't care anymore. I'll still see everyone occasionally but it will give me a chance to figure things out and maybe not hate people I should care about. Some of you have nothing to do with this..some of you think you do, but don't. And others think you don't but in fact do. But I don't really care. One of you is just driving me crazy..another apparently lost all respect for me for somthing insanly retarded (and btw I would never lose respect for you) and that actually hurt more than it probably should. ..Another I just don't understand how your brain works..I trust you with alot and I don't really understand the way you repay me but whatever...A couple of you I am just tired of never seeing you. I've come to realize I hate relationships, they steal away all of my friends. I really am happy for you guys, but it would be nice to see you besides the occasional birthday party. But thats just me, you guys really might not care. And in that case please let me know so I can try to not care as much.
And you know what else? Fuck dads. Fuck them for treating their kid like crap. For just stopping all communication excpet for the "oh you need to go to school and while your at it find a job that pays alot of money and work every minute your not in school so you can pay me back for all I've given you" talk. I just wanna be done. Why do I have to care when he doesn't? I'll probablly still care about him even if he takes everything and just kicks me out..kinda sucks.
And fuck prejudice assholes. You can't just look at me and hate me. And you can't decide you don't like me after I've done everythin you wanted me to do and did it right just because you don't agree with everything I do with my life.
Just fuck everything.
...And I know that was kinda random and it's the first blog I've done in a hundred years but whatever.
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[20 Nov 2005|08:16pm] |
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OK. So me and Anna are officially Target employees. Spring Break trip is gonna happen. I hope. Whoever doesnt know about it we are totally goin Beachin up the Gulf Coast and the Panhandle so save your money if you want to go. I will definatly go if at least one more person goes. John keeps saying it wont happen but if a few people just save up some cash we can. Animals by Nickelback is the coolest song ever. I have to work for the rest of my life. I have work Monday Tuesday Friday and Saturday. And on Monday Tuesday and Friday I have to work untill 11 so that sucks a little bit. Desperate Housewives and Greys Anatomy come on in a half hour. My 2 favorite shows woo hoo! Ok i think thats all i have to say.
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[03 Nov 2005|09:41pm] |
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Its my birthday woo hoo! and Whitlow sang to me becuase of Ari but i guess its okay woo hoo! Party tomorrow woo hoo again!
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[02 Sep 2005|11:50am] |
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ive come to realize i am a very jealoous person...i get jealous over the stupidest things but i cant help it but i get so mad about things..but whatever...im bored and im cleaning my house cause its messy and they put my driveway in so i think all thats left is the grass then were good but i dunno they always lie to us..
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[12 Jul 2005|12:08pm] |
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hmm...so we went fishing last night and it was fun...john and cat caught fih but i suck and umm i dunno but then we went to see jenny cause shes home and that was great and she got me mexican mountain dew!! woo hoo but i have work today so now im sad and i have work tomorrow...ugh im realy tired and my mom took the truck again cause crazy lady thinks it smells like fish but it doesnt cause i cleaned it she just wanted an excuse to take the good car...
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[07 Jul 2005|11:35pm] |
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ok so we went to work which sucked but at least i get paid then we went to the bowling alley but the power was out and i was hungry so we go to wal mart and crispy pops his tire in a pot hole and the kid from work takes him home and me anna ari and trev go in wal mart and i get a salad and those cool pretzel thingies and a root beer it was good but i gave like half the salad to ari and then i take everyone home and ari is magical..she really is it amazed me and now im crazy tired which is weird cause its only 11:30 but whatever so im going to bed..but im excited cause jenny is coming home on monday but it doesnt really matter cause all her days are already booked and me and john arnt on the schedule :( ... but maybe we will get to see her before she leaves again......
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[28 Jun 2005|02:19pm] |
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woo work is cancelled! i love when they say that....hmm but now i dont know what to do...tomorrow is war of the worlds so that should be good..cameron just came out covered in suntan lotion and i yelled at him and he started crying and said he wanted to go to the beach and i got sad and said we would go somtime cause i hate when i make him cry he makes me cry...but now i have a empty suntan lotion bottle and suntan lotion everywhere to take care of..some litle kids....
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[10 Jun 2005|12:57pm] |
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tostinos supreme pizza is the shit...
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[04 Jun 2005|11:01pm] |
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okay this sucks...i come home early oonlyto find the house full of boys...not one chick at all..well xcept my dog but she dont count..so my dad goes to bed and leaves me mktanner, alex cameron and dylan..cameron and alex fuel eachother so they are running around jumping and screaming while i hold tanner who cant sit yet..which is why there re so many tyos, hes hitting the keyboaRD my mom wont come home and my big sister is fishing and wont be back forever...so we go outside to look at stars so they will calm down which resulted in cam and tanner in my lap and alex running around the neighborhood cayse cam was scared..but now were in and i wanna go to bed and the boys are tired and starting to cry..my lif3e sucks but um extreme volleyball tmorrow..........did you guys ever notice no one ever comments o n my posts? its cause you all secretly hate me..or maybe its not a secret....
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[29 May 2005|11:21am] |
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woo work was cancelled yesterday and we didnt have to go today either..i love my life but now im stuck at home watching three over active little boys and i wanna go over krystles with everyone else..life sucks
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[27 May 2005|01:08pm] |
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i am so tired....and i hate my job...i might stay till i gt paid but i dunno i am too tired and the hours there go by so slow its not cool...but ok stayed at krystles tuesday? i think it was tuesday then wednesday went to work first day hung out after with krystle cat and anna and john then went to krystles and hung out it was fun then yesterday went to barnes and noble again then krystles..raced cat and i won woo but i think if she was trying she defanitly would have beat me o went to the beach yesterday then went to cats and had showers..that was fun then i sorta fell asleep on her bed/floor then left today i had to wake up early again to go over jessicas and watch the babys...that sucked one can walk and get into EVERYTHING and the other you have to sit there and hold or he will cry so i had to hold the one and chase the other..hard work um ok i think im done and trevor im sorry everything got messed up it was like a misunderstanding or somthing ok i need a nap
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[17 May 2005|09:56pm] |
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woo ok me and john got the job and we start next wednesday so thats cool and i gotta save my money and talk my parents into letting me fly to pa with john over summer...hopefully its fine as long as i pay for it but i dunno...after the interview we went to see my mommy then the mall and i saw steven and he hugged me and i love him..but he was just visiting and that sucks and no one know who he is but its ok and then we went to best buy and john got the new system of a down cd and i got shinedown cause i love them and dont have the cd..i have johns tho some where...i got my yearbook today and that was exciting except they are thin and that sucks..LOST tomorrow woo...then thursday and then friday exams and then only 2 more days im so happy i wanna go live at the beach i wanna go to sabastian inlet..that place rocks..ok i think im done now..goodbye
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[28 Apr 2005|09:50pm] |
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i like sixteen candles..its my favorite....but um yeah im bored and i saw aris dad on his motorcycle and i said hey thats aris dad and my mom said o where and then i showed her and she said oh and then we went to wal-mart were she proceeded to talk to everyone so we never got to leave but she bought me reeses ice cream so it was ok and my like friend that i had when i was real little we were like best friends when we were babies till i moved away at like 7 or somthing is graduating so me and my mom are going to go it on may 19 or somthing so that might be cool i havnt seen him for a million years but whatever im going to bed now..good night
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[23 Apr 2005|11:53pm] |
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went to the mall saw jillian went to amittyville horror found seats,(sort of), bought underoath cd, (it kicks ass by the way)...um...almost got in a crash with crispy but was all good and i think thats it... ::so long and good night:: im going to bed now
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[14 Apr 2005|04:38pm] |
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ok im on a mission im going to get skinny..(or you know at least a little thinner) and make my parents let me do what ive wanted to do forever ok 5 years not forever and then im gonna have fun woo..but i think ill still go even if i dont get skinny even tho i said i wouldnt and this whole lets get skinny thing is pretty hard geezbut whatever so bbq thing tomorrow dont think alot of people are going but then again maybe i dunno i hope jenny dont go to the tc but she will and i wanna go to the beach saturday early in the morning but i dunno if i will have a car and if i do im not picking people up unless i have gas money and even at that i dunno if i wanna go all around town so if you wanna go your gonna hafta talk to me first but i still dunno if ill have a car so well see and i think thats it....
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[25 Mar 2005|10:51am] |
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yes! pirates of the caribbean 2 is in filming and a third one is in pre production woo hoo! the second one is called Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead mans chest
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[24 Mar 2005|11:47pm] |
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ok seriously i just dont like staying over peoples houses i never even said i was for sure i said maybe and prolly and even if i said yes who cares you guys were doing somthing else anyway and i dont like ghosts so if you found one id freak out and i was on the phone for 10 minutes and some odd seconds so whatever and you need to realize the window is open and try not to make me wanna go kill myself next time ok?
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[19 Mar 2005|11:11pm] |
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omg...this is the wierdest day of my life...i know im dreaming and i dunnno if i actually wanna wake up but please let me be dreaming
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[14 Mar 2005|04:40pm] |
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I slept for 22 hours.....amazing
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